Its been 8 weeks since I enter into college life. I starts to know each and everyone of my classmate better. But, of course, I will never know their trueself. Well, we doesn’t not hang out that often as we did. Reasons and rejections that I wanna hear no more, I’d rather just let them plan. I just enter college like two months but I had a feeling that it wouldn’t be a dream school of mine. The one that I am close to the most doesn’t care much about ppl and I do really hates that she is ALWAYS late. Sorry, but I din say it because of once or twice situation. I am too, close with a Jackie *I think*, he’s fun that I wouldn’t really be bored around him.. but I felt sorry as they always says that we’re couple. Maybe I wouldn’t feel it that way if they are not that closed-minded. =[ but, whatever it is, I dun giv a damn bout it. I bet it would be great if he was my elder brother. Haha.. one day maybe?? =D

Recently, I sort of chatted with a guy-girl. Then, the next day my classmate ask me about it. Then I thought it was nothing. UNTIL few days ago, I heard them saying about me cause I talked sign-languagely to the guy-girl’s friend and maybe they thought I talked to the guy-girl. If she really does likes her, then just tell. I mean no onewould have known if you don’t tell right? This is no more a normal world. Abnormal are normal nowadays. Besides, what is so wrong of me talking to a friend? I am clearly not a lesbian. If I am then the possibilities of me liking one guy-girl is totally so not her. If I talks to a guy they says me sorts of stuffs and the same damn thing happens when I talks to a girl then who do u expect me to talk to?? If you really don’t wan me to talk to her so badly, then just talk to me about it. Then I wont talk to her unless its necessary. I’m cool with that. But, just don’t talk behind my back could you? Take it as I plead you or anything, but I am really sick of it.
Just few days ago, we had this bbq event at paradise beach. We start off with taking breakfast after account test. Well.. I dun wanna talk about account test. All I can say is “oh, fuck!!” so, lets continue with after breakfast. We went to study room, we played cards version monopoly there and that’s when I realized that they talks about me. Believe it or not but they say me “yam chin” BECAUSE OF A GUY-GIRL.. WHAT THE HELL weyh??!! Ignore that, let’s move on. After that we go tesco to shop for bbq stuffs!! Quite fun and noisy we were. xD after having our lunch, we moved on to the beach. Then we starts to play like, hell yes, we haven’t play in a long time. I’ve played banana boat for the very first time with Kenny, Vicky, ai chee, Jessica, ken fai, kar wei and I on the boat. The fun part and also the worst part is when they dump us into the sea!! We swim like quite a distant to reach back to the beach. I join Kenny and Vicky more while playing in the sea. But, of course, I did join the others to play games and stuffs. Later that evening, jee ning join us, but she was kinda lonely. I pitied her but couldn’t help much. The game that last longest was that gym game.. Kenny and Jackie run so fast like they never run before.. ahaha.. so, overall, that day was fun until after the games. My classmate, yi wei and Vicky’s belongings was stolen. Later that night, we went for supper. I kinda thought of my ex. So, my mood wasn’t that good. I thought I’ve forgot completely bout him ady~ maybe it’s because I went to the place we’ve been together before.. =[ nevermind.. I will try my best to forgive and forget. =] my mood was better on the way back home.. talked a lot to yin ching and ken fai for the first time!!
I will try my best to cope with my classmate more in the future.. =] I will smile no matter what happens. If that’s for the better, I will try my best to do it. Wish me luck!! =D